Okay this is a post that I’m not sure I should even be writing. It’s not that I don’t believe Jaspy can walk, it’s just that I’ve never seen it. My mum has though, and my dad and sister … but until I’ve seen it can I really say he’s a walker?
Let’s start from the beginning. You may know that I got a really exciting opportunity to go to Frankfurt last week for a day. One day. 24 hours … that’s all I was gone for.
I’ll point out that I’ve been hesitant to put Jaspy into nursery just yet incase I miss out on any major milestones. Well, it looks like I only have to be away from him for a matter of hours for him bust out a new trick!
As I was boarding the plane to come home; bearing in mind the flight was an hour long and the taxi ride home just over an hour; my mum text me to say that Jaspy had taken 2 steps!
Is it bad that my first thought was jealousy? I felt so sad that I’d missed those steps and honestly, a little annoyed at Jasper for making them while I was away. I didn’t want to sound unhappy that my son had made such a wonderful milestone so I text back to say how amazing it was and that I couldn’t wait to see.
I was instantly greeted by a 2nd text to say that he’d taken 4 steps! Woah Jasper really? You’re really going to keep knocking them out of the park like this? 2 hours and I’d be home, he couldn’t wait until then?
Of course, I was so happy and proud of him; it just quite frankly hurt that I’d missed it. I’d witnessed every other milestone, all of which I never knew when to expect but this was the next one. There weren’t any other major milestones to wait for; that was it and it was lingering at any time.
I missed it. I never saw my babies first steps. I couldn’t be excited; selfishly I could only be annoyed.
I text my mum back to say how clever he was but could she not tell me anymore as I was sad that I couldn’t be there. Childish I know but I’d be there so soon and I just wanted to see it for myself. I felt like the kid that didn’t get invited to the party with all of their friends.
Well would the little man show me his new found walking legs? Would he heck! It’s been 3 days and I’m yet to see these steps. I’ve tried sitting him on his train (where he took his first steps … allegedly); I’ve even asked my mum to try and coax him to do it … nada!
Either it never happened or Jaspy has realised Muma didn’t want to be late to the party and is instead giving it a bit of a break so that the next time he does it, it’ll seem all bright and new.
I know he did take those steps, I don’t doubt that at all but I am glad to have a little break from the excitement of it so that it can be a whole new bit of excitement when he does it for me! Unless he decides to try again while I’m in Palma next week …. oh god I need to get practising with him!
Have you ever felt sad at a milestone that should be happy?
Thanks for reading!