Reflection

The best year of my life has come to an end. That’s not to say that the next won’t beat it; in fact I hope that each year surpasses the past however 2014 certainly was the best to date!
In 2014 I found a part of my heart that I never knew I had.
I shared my sons array of amazing milestones and watched him grow into the amazing 8 month old that he is now.
In 2014 I watched Jaspy crack that winning smile, I watched him roll, crawl, sit and climb.
I felt his kisses, his snuggles and his arms reaching out to me.
I heard his husky adorable laugh and say muma, dad and baba.

I saw his fluffy bed hair emerge, his chubby chops expand and his scrummy bum get even peachier!

I learnt his likes and his dislikes; his characteristics and mannerisms. I discovered his patterns and routines (or lack there of) and I witnessed the incredible love that he spread to my family and friends.

In 2014 I saw strangers coo and smile over my son. I heard them tell me how gorgeous and happy he is.
In 2014 my heart melted.

In 2014 I learnt about myself. I learnt my strengths; mainly rocking sick on my shoulder and surviving on little sleep. I learnt my weaknesses – multitasking and taking criticism.

I found a new level of anxieties, worries and rage. I invented ridiculous scenarios in my head that could but will never happen and cried about them.

In 2014 I cried a lot. I cried with happiness, proudness, sadness and overwhelming love. I cried that Jaspy was getting older and was no longer a newborn. I cried when I wasn’t watching him and he hurt himself, I cried when he was teething and I cried when he laughed.

In 2014, I became a mother. I became anxious, determined, passionate, excited, maternal and dependable. I became a comfort blanket, a punching bag, a mess and a world. I became a woman.

Asides from all that motherhood has brought me, 2014 brought me some other gifts.
In 2014 my teeny tiny blog became a limited company.
In 2014 we moved into our new home surrounded by so much beauty.
In 2014 we welcomed new family members and friends. Babies were born, pregnancies were announced and weddings were celebrated.

In 2014 has been a beautiful year. Amongst the beauty of course there has been sadness. Death and illness doesn’t stand at the sidelines until you’re having a shitty year; it rears it’s ugly head no matter how high you are; but with all the beauty surrounding my family and friends we were able to see the beauty in sadness and celebrate all that was good.

Thank you 2014, I’m so so grateful to have lived you; I’m so so glad my son got to live you; his first year; his only ever 2014 and a fantastic start to his life.

Bring on 2015!

 

Thanks for reading,

~J~

10 Comments

  • Dianne
    9th January 2015 at 7:40 am Reply

    Brilliant reading Jessie. Sometimes we all forget to stop and reflect on how amazing things have been and still are x

    • Jessica
      16th January 2015 at 7:55 pm Reply

      Thank you 🙂 It really has been a wonderful year!

  • Sarah
    9th January 2015 at 8:25 am Reply

    Happy new year! Beautiful post! So much of it felt written for me. My 10 month old son gave me all of the joys you mentioned in 2014 (as well as the anxieties). Unfortunately 2014 became my worst nightmare when my dear mum died suddenly. But that doesn’t erase the wonderful milestones of motherhood that my son blessed me with. Have a happy & healthy 2015 – the year of having a toddler! x

    • Jessica
      16th January 2015 at 7:56 pm Reply

      Thank you Sarah 🙂 I’m so sorry to hear about your mum; how wonderful to have your boy to make you smile throughout 🙂 Happy New Year! xx

  • Gráinne Reid
    9th January 2015 at 10:20 am Reply

    Such a beautiful post, I am genuinely fighting back the tears reading it! You truly captured how amazing it is to become a mother. Thank you so much for sharing and wishing you and your little one every happiness for 2015 x

    • Jessica
      16th January 2015 at 7:56 pm Reply

      Thank you so much Grainne, I’m really glad you liked it 🙂

  • Alex Bumptobaby
    9th January 2015 at 1:34 pm Reply

    This is a lovely post. Sounds like 2014 was an amazing year for you, I hope 2015 will be just as great! x

    • Jessica
      16th January 2015 at 7:57 pm Reply

      Thank you lovely; I can just tell it will be! Especially for you with bambino number 2!

  • Jenna
    11th January 2015 at 11:28 pm Reply

    Absolutely beautiful post, Jess. I can relate to so many of these precious moments you’ve shared – becoming a mum is like nothing else.

    Here’s to an amazing 2015 to you and your family.

    Jenna at Tinyfootsteps xx

    • Jessica
      16th January 2015 at 7:57 pm Reply

      It really will be beautiful! Here’s to us mumas 🙂

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Hi I’m Jess, a parenting, lifestyle and travel blogger. I write about all things minimalism, mum life, fitness and travel with a heap of positivity!

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